i am a good girl~

[lita]

Property of Annabell Lita Spades

OOC; so Balthazar can quote Lita's journal directly if he so wishes - I've decided to create entries from her journal that may have been of importance! <3

[lita]

Journal;
Sorry I haven't updated in a while... I didn't think I need my Journal again... until now.

Anyway, you've missed a lot this past year.

I did end up getting to Hogwarts... my step-brother helped me get everything I need, and helped me get to where I needed to go. It was so magical... like nothing I'd ever felt before. People on the train talked to me. They wanted to be around me, and I didn't know what to do! I just stayed quiet... some people left when I didn't speak back, but a few others did stay, and they broke me from my shell.

I was sorted into Slytherin... not what I was expecting, but I guess the Sorting Hat is always right.

Anyway... I guess the good doesn't outweigh the bad. I'm currently locked up in my room. When Demetrius picked me up, he was really quiet. Different and kinda zoned out. I figured out why when we got home. Samuel let into me as soon as I walked in the door - Peaches just barely had the chance to race to my bedroom before Samuel grabbed me and put me against the wall. He was stoned - I could tell. His pupils were dilated, and he was staggering a bit... probably drunk too.

I asked where Mom was, and.... well, she died half way through the year. Samuel told me it was my fault because I never wrote her letters. Died of a broken heart... Demetrius told me later that it was a drug overdose. Doesn't surprise me. It was Samuel's fault.

So, for the past week I've been locked in my room. Whenever Samuel is away getting more drugs, or drinks, Demetrius would bring me some food and stuff... sometimes I wish I wasn't magic. Maybe then I'd be a little accepted by my muggle "family".

Tonight, I'm going to break out. I'm gonna do what I want, and break out! Saved my steak knife tonight when Demetrius brought me dinner... so I'm gonna cut through my screen on my window.

Wish me luck...

Annabell

[lita]

Journal;
His name is Severus Snape. Oh, and he's SOOO cute! He's kinda shy... like me. I think we'd get along great! I can't believe I never seen him before now - second year at Hogwarts, c'mon. Well, I suppose I really stuck to myself last year... If anybody found out my true blood status, I'd be dead! If Severus ever found out my true blood status... I'd probably kill myself.

I find myself running in the other direction whenever Severus comes my way... I hide whenever he enters the common room. Aughh, I just wish I had the courage enough to talk to him! I bet he's super interesting.

Better get to potions class now before I'm late... Severus will be there!

Annabell

[lita]

Sorry Journal;
I didn't think I'd need you again 'cause things were going well... but it's summer again, and I'm back home with Samuel and Demetrius.

Not. Fun.

I've been locked in my room for five days straight now... Samuel says I don't need to come out, as I can just use my "devil powers" to conjure up some slaughtered pig or something to eat... I tried explaining to him that I can't use my magic outside of school, but he didn't listen. Of course. After the third day, I did end up conjuring a meal and a bucket. A small meal... maybe I won't get in trouble for a small meal?

Why haven't I snuck out? Samuel got smart. Locked the window.

Hmmn... no sign of my getting into trouble so far for making toast... so gonna unlock that bastard window tonight.

Wish me luck, Journal.

Annabell